Unshod Quills

Study of a Shanghai Street Sweeper in the Rain on the Way to Morning Coffee - Shanghai, China, 12/11 - Dena Rash Guzman - on the theme of Coffee

Dear Readers,

DAVID BOWIE DAVID BOWIE DAVID BOWIE!

Unshod Quills is a theme based publication, centered around themes chosen by the editor or other participants in the Unshod Quills Writing Collective. DAVID BOWIE! One of my dream themes, and this issue is very much about him. With just the beerlight to guide us, we also feature works based on the themes of love, coffee, Joan of Arc, dancing about architecture, and enough rope.

Speaking of coffee, David Bowie and enough rope, this is how I spent my pre-Christmas unvacation:

My publisher,  HAL Publishing, flew me to its hometown of Shanghai earlier this month. I was there to stage, for an audience of over 300, a group performance of my smutty little short story, “A Brief History of Dan Orange of Shanghai.” This was a multimedia presentation featuring myself and a truly international cast of artists including Estel Vilar, UQ Contributor Ginger wRong Chen, UQ contributor Katrina Hamlin, the enigmatic Barbara A., and Mr. Brian Keane. Video backdrop was provided by Colorado’s own Jerimiah Whitlock. The occasion? The River South Arts Festival, a four day celebration of independent Shanghai art and literature, featuring Slamhai3 and the release of HAL’s second collection of short stories,

Middle Kingdom Underground: short stories from the people’s republic of 

The US edition should be ready for sale around February 15 and I’ll have two stories in the book, one co-written with HAL founder and regular UQ contributor, Mr. Bjorn Wahlstrom. The book’s theme of vice in modern China is heavy and dark, and the stories by fifteen authors, both local and non-native to China, are accordingly complex and delightful.

In the meanwhile, a click to the title above will take you to the stunning and beautiful and bizarre Middle Kingdom Underground book trailer, produced and directed by September Unshod Quills contributor, Portlander Posie Currin. In addition, the HAL book release was filmed and will soon be broadcast internationally on the new fine arts internet TV network Bravoflix.

Where do coffee, David Bowie and enough rope come into the above recap? Let me write you a prose poem, that will make no sense, in order to explain myself.

Coffee – I drank a lot while I was in China. Not so much tea. Coffee. I  learned that I make a terrible pot of French press. David Bowie – that’s Bjorn, but minus any glitter and plus a freighter of stardust. Bjorn wears all black all the time, unless it’s raining, and then he wears white leather tennis shoes. Enough rope – after nearly setting his neighbor’s kitchen on fire with my suitcase, I learned that Bjorn keeps enough rope on hand to escape out a window just in case of some such event as a clumsy American starting fires with suitcase and a hotplate in a stairwell. There are no fire escapes in those old buildings. Rope is good. He’s four stories up and to get in or out one must pass through two neighbor’s kitchens and  twisty flights of narrow, steep stairs. It’s a gorgeous place, though, and Bjorn has a cat that is in the process of self-actualization. Perhaps soon big fat Blackie cat will get his own rope. 

I’m grateful to HAL for having me as a guest performer at their book release party, and for all the support they’ve shown to Unshod Quills over the past year.

Meanwhile, back in America, managing Editor Wendy Ellis and I struggled to confine our selections of art and literature for December to a reasonable number.  That is why we chose not one, but two featured poets for this issue.

Having worked with James H. Duncan a number of times over the past four years, I am already acquainted with his eloquent ornate minimalist style, and have long been a fan. James was an easy choice to feature, and we hope you enjoy his work as we do.

Our second feature is an amazing writer who sent a suite of submissions on the theme of childhood alone, and our skirts were blown nearly clean off by the gale force of their brilliance. Be sure to look at the poetry of Catherine Woodard.

Both of our featured poets are based in New York City. We get it, New York: we want to be a part of it, too.

December’s featured artist is from another part of the universe: Greece. Sugahtank John Roubanis is a talented graphic design artist and illustrator; his King Kong poster take this month’s front page. We love his work, from the scratchy, ropy sketches of near-human figures to the sublime political graphics to his logo work. Sugahtank’s vision told us it needed a good sharing with the Unshod Quills readership. It actually spoke to us.

We are also happy to see the return of Kevin Sampsell. His Bowie piece is hilarious and I for one will never be able to look at him the same way, fiction or not. Rusty Barnes is in this issue with some uniquely elegant and rough country flavored fiction, while Timothy Gager tells you you’re gonna need a bigger sandwich. Order up. Also look for the work of Portlander Jenny Forrester and the best middle school Bowie obsession fiction we’ve ever read – Jenny Hayes is in the house. HAL Publishing’s W.M. Butler shares a treacherous story about bullies and rabbits and the beauty and brutality of childhood, and it’s an editorial favorite. We have the work of Frank Reardon, Matty Byloos and Nancy Flynn… Ryan Werner kills it with his minute by minute rundown of Bowie and Jagger’s video for “Dancing in the Street.” I love Bowie, yes, but everyone makes mistakes. Look for UQ’s own X. Joloronde and Robert Myer on Joan of Arc, too.

I could go on but just look to the right and click away. Thanks for visiting, and we’ll be releasing our next call for submissions on New Year’s Day – I’ll let you know now that one of our themes will be David Lynch.

Spread these writers around like the pandemic they are.

Ever yours,

Dena Rash Guzman
Editor
Unshod Quills
in the woods near Portland, Oregon, USA

Dena Rash Guzman, seated, listening to Ginger wRong Chen in Shanghai - 12/11

Walter Edgewater Talks to God on the Train
(on the theme of David Bowie)

The trees outside are slow today.
God, are you there? It’s me, Walter.
You again? Yes, me again. Whaddaya want?

I’ve got a brand new song to show you,
though it probably won’t blow your mind.
So sing it already. Jesus. I’m on the home

stretch. Only a few more months of pills
& this brain fog. You’re welcome.
What did you do? I never asked for your help.

You’re stuck with me now. Well, unstick me.
I’m not playing your game. I give back
my ticket. I’m done. You entered

into a contract, Walter. That was the old me.
I doubt that’s valid anymore. Until the end
of time. You don’t run the atomic clock.

You swam against the tide but you drowned
in the sky. That makes sense to me now.

I’ve got a song for you too: Because my love
for you would break my heart in two,
if you should fall
into my arms
& tremble
like a flower.

What happened to originality? It was lost
when I became man. Not so easy, is it?
I don’t know how you people do it.

It’s a matter of resolve—a feeling
that everything will get better. The body,
this fleshy mess, repairs itself & houses
whatever it is that writes my songs.

You know I’m the ghost writer, don’t you?
No, you’re not. It is mankind
that sings. It’s why we gave ourselves
vocal chords, chatterbox. You wouldn’t

understand. Hey, I put this thing in motion
in a matter of days. Do you realize how quickly
I could take it all away? You should read

my latest pamphlet. That’s okay, old
friend. Things have changed. We built this
up & we’ll be the ones to tear it down.

But what about me? We’ll give you
a front row seat & then, once it’s gone,
it’s back to the infinite nothing for you.

Maybe I’ll see what Beelzebub’s up to.
Whatever you do, get ready.
You’ll wish that you had somebody
to sing your songs for you.

________________________

Walter Edgewater & The Tiny Cup 

(on the theme of coffee)

Frankly, gentlemen, I don’t care
about what business was like
when you were street vendors.
All I want is a place to sit, but not
atop rogue coats left by a ghost

or a robot. Everything belongs
to someone. No apparitions, only
partitions between the real

& the right, plate glass window
connected by sunlight—showing
insides, smudges, & tape stains.

Two girls sit next to me:
1. The one I love, wrote her
love poems on Valentine’s, & now,
President’s Day. 2. One wearing the same
green & black flannel shirt as me.

Hunched over the same way.
Hair tossed & messed the same way.
Chomping fingernails the same way.

Funny how these minute details
& modicum appearances are missed
by one & celebrated by another persona.

1. She’s got polka-dotted sneakers,
gray & white flannel. Before we were
seated, she raised her voice & needed to
leave immediately—people crashed
& bumped her like she wasn’t there.

Now seated in the sun, she’s kissed—
now, again. Still wearing sneakers.
3. Girl across table: please stop
picking your nose. By now, you should

know that I see everything, all
is filtered through me. To understand,
I throw myself into the depths.
Someday I’ll get out & we’ll see.
Until then I’m here & we’ll see.

_________

Walter Edgewater Sees a Nosaj Thing
(on the theme of coffee)

Is this what the kids are listening to
today—zombie music? Two guys
in overcoats, eyes like silver dollars,
(sand dollars, Papier Gamâché says), skulk
& swing arms, shoulders brandished, ready
to strike anyone willing to look. I’m sore
to the spine, back cracking & knees rigid.
In a shifty room I’m not moving,
not even the softest toe tap or head nod.
In between acts, tripping patrons flock
to doors, need to leave. They reach the back,
run into the rope blocking the path
from the pit, gaze around, befuddled.
This is the strangest thing they’ve ever seen.

Nosaj Thing finally takes the stage,
the shakers rush forward & nod knowingly
to the music of the skinny kid,
barely twenty, so busy, knob-twisting,
head-neck-shoulder dipping & ducking,
so busy up there, an art so intricate,
tempo controlled by twists of the wrists,
effortless, he only stops midair
to casually wipe sweat from his brow,
a movement figured into the equation,
all so mathematical, precise, every single
sound placed in its proper container.
He plays for ninety minutes straight
without even the slightest silence. I pay
attention as best I can with some guy
swaying in front of me, inching closer
& closer with every loop, no regard
for my space, until I’m purposely mouth-
breathing down his neck so he knows
I’m the strangest thing he’s ever seen.
He asks me to back up. I do not change.
I leave early, joints too tired to stand.

Today is a Sunday. I drink coffee
in my leopard print robe. Tomorrow,
I’ll listen to last night’s songs
through headphones at my desk
as I answer work emails.

_______________

Walter Edgewater Never Gives all the Heart
(on the theme of love)

I never give all the heart, for love
is bullshit, mostly. I leave
work early to find your sheets
left at last night’s laundromat, children
threatening as I enter. They’re right
where you left them—cold
in the dryer. You return home
again, but only to complain
about the heat—we can’t control it,
or our hearts. I hope you’re happy
when you’re not here, where others
appreciate you more, as you remind me.
I was happy, years ago, & I was
last night. A thin young woman
danced next to me—I leaned
against the stage—her hairy arm
brushed mine bare. She stared
at me, I thought, but really
she looked through to the stack
of empty beer cups left
by the night’s opening
act. She split them apart
& swung the little swill
& screamed, I’m just really thirsty!

All night I heard airborne signals
of love from another (You know
I love you, right?). I tried giving
everything once before—I failed.
Tonight I sloppily tuck you in
after you chastise me for stealing
the blankets last night, as I do
each night, while I sleep & you lie
awake. Everything is sometimes
lovely & a brief, dreamy, kind
delight (the latter a word used
so often to describe me)—sometimes.
I have lost before
& I will lose again.
You have lost me before
& you will lose me again.

_________________________

Walter Edgewater’s Reasons to Fall in Love with Walter Edgewater
(on the theme of love)

I have a job.

I am a locomotive.

My name is an anagram for “Wet, Wet, Large Dear.”

As a boy, the tip of my finger
was ground in the gears
of a mechanical chicken.

I have no will to live.

I live to serve my maker, wherever he is.

I see stars.

I drink shit coffee.

I skinned my foreskin
in a bicycle accident
as a child & didn’t
know if I should show
my friend because I didn’t know
if he or she was a he or a she.

I’m pretty okay at math.

I contemplate the philosophies
of everything in the universe.

I can do as many sit-ups
as Herschel Walker,
the former Dallas Cowboys star less famous
for his multiple personality disorder.

I’m a language poet.

I’ve never been to a dogfight.

…

Okay, I’ve been to one dogfight.

I lost my virginity on a kitchen floor

next to bowls of dog food.

Horses ride me.

I’m a champion
luchador.

I make my own cardboard.

Everything I buy is on sale.

I’m lonely.

I see the best minds of my generation
at the titty bar.

I’m really good at pissing
money away at the greyhound track.

I’m a member of a world-
wide poetry collective
based on chicken sandwiches.

I once stepped on a beehive
& when they swarmed on me,
I stung them.

Do I contradict myself?

I fall in love but never
out of it.

I’m a sailboat skipper.

I’m a coxcomb
but I just found out.

I planted America’s seed
in the sun.

I am the godhead
on fire.

I was born at a very early age.

I intend to live forever,
or die trying.

I can seal an envelope.

I am an actor
& this page is my stage.

I am a Renaissance man
on weekends in April & May
at the Oklahoma Renaissance
Festival in Muskogee, OK
at the Castle of Muskogee.

I get jokes.

I’ve been to the center
of the earth to search for the black sun
but found only rotten dinosaurs
(also known as oil, according to someone
who claims to have loved me once).

I objectify the human form.

I make a mean grilled cheese.

I make a gentle grilled cheese.

I make cheese.

Please, please, please—I’m in love
with the world, so help me
make it love me back.

I’m in love with you.

________________________

I Give Walter Edgewater a Haircut
(on the theme of childhood)

Walter has been here since childhood,
numbed & sleeping & threaded with cloth
to a three-post bed—the fourth yanked off

for whenever he thrashes or tries to
sail off. He’s fitted with a permanent sleep
mask, smeared with coal & threaded

with green & white electrical wires. I speak
into his ears while I cover my mouth
with the mesh of a window screen. First

I state the true meaning (here, “paper”)
& then what I will really say (here, “piper”).
Piper, Walter. Piper. He doesn’t know

anything but the boxy outlines of letters
projected onto the back of his sticky eyelids,
& the white text forging lines on black

expanse. I really mean “source” but say
“sauce.” Sauce, Walter. I’m feeding him
sleep intravenously & I stick patches

on his forehead & chest. All is hooked
with a nest of messy wires to the plasma
TV hanging rigid on the wall. I suppose you can say

he can only see what I tell him to imagine, indirectly.
Tonight, it’s time for a haircut in our old home-
town: the barbershop run by the local ex-con (Mike

the Butcher, as our grandmother called him).
He’s known for slicing little boys’ ears. Walter, gracious,
shows me the list of rules on the brown wall: “1. If your hair is long

we’re going to buzz it.” But wait—who’s that outside
in the darkened lot, next to the wooden wagon?
It’s her, last’s night final procession,

the woman with silken locks & no face. Why can’t you
give her a goddamned face, Walter? I’m saying face
& I MEAN IT. Face. Face. Fine.

Author Biography

A Brief History of Cockroaches, Glitter Rock, and Inappropriate Love Objects
(on the theme of David Bowie)

Once upon a time, my nemesis was the cockroach,
that summer I worked at the Indian import shop in Brattle Square.
Their squadrons aligned for daily battle over the barricades:
drying dishes next to the apartment kitchen sink.
Whenever I got up in the night, turned on the light,
how they’d scatter, their claws a skin-skimming whisper
married to hiss. I tried every variation of the “Vegas roach trap”—
stale beer, coffee grounds, sticks up the sides of a Mason jar
and Vaseline around the lip to increase the slick.
All hail, the cockroach, apotheosis of tenacity!

It was the roaches in their 4th of July parade
across my futon, the final straw that finally
drove me into Ted’s bed (and arms)
even though we weren’t that kind
of roommates—one more who was gay not bi.
This was, after all, 1974: the U.S. still in Vietnam,
the Dead on their first tour without Pigpen,
and Bowie at the Music Hall in Boston where he donned
a Ziggy Stardust jumpsuit for half the evening’s songs.

My enemy should have been tanning
so to protect this Irish-mottled skin.
Or Camel straights because of my (future) asthma lungs.
Or bare feet on the hot tar, bottle-shard Massachusetts Avenue.
Or the guy who grabbed my crotch under my hippie skirt
that eve walking home from King of Hearts
at the cinema on Central Square.

Those days of rush and foolish trust,
any stranger might be christened “friend.”
A guy’d walk into a store, blond hair a waterfall
over his Pendleton plaid. Back-and-forth sallies
about what you’re reading (Anaïs Nin), the decline
of literacy (shameful), whether Mr. “Enemies List” Nixon
will really be impeached. Then, cosmic coincidence,
you’re both Tassajara Bread Book devotees!
The next night, you’re on the Red Line to Alewife,
a dinner of lentil loaf, alfalfa sprouts, and Something Missing
muffins. Followed by lips locked over a rickety
kitchen table then the (requisite) screwing on the linoleum floor.
After? Midnight’s T back to the Buddha
who, by the way, is not in favor of lust.

Who teaches to love, accept, live and let every enemy live,
cockroaches and all. I’m not sure I ever got to that,
that August when I watched the swans in the Public Garden
and walked walked walked those city streets, restless
to escape my awkward infestation-situation,
notebook in a messenger bag, my temporary
enemy an inkless fountain pen.

_________

Ligature
(on the theme Enough Rope)

Tie Me Down, Tie Me Up

Strips of rag, one nubby wool, one silk,
we re-arrange our cast-offs, braided, taut.
Down to what’s underneath we merge—
your strapless bustier, my Gucci jock.
Touch is our glove, our tether,
& our truss—the ties that lash,
that fret us to the bed. Oh,
lift your legs & let them wrap around
my clarinet,
my woody reed,
my head!

Licorice Stick

Jimmy Dorsey tootled “Green Eyes,”
with—oh, the power to send me ogling

your rings of amber, my cautionary hepcat.
Hell, even Ol’ Blue Eyes wanted to fly us

to the moon. Why didn’t we take him up on that?
Go go-go before Bechet blew jail, his clarinet

emptied of the gone-away blues while we two
dueled, all our wrong chords snorted out.

Likely, the reed was simply slipping,
needed a new ligature, thread or hemp.

Ampersand

Our typeset was a unit.
Two graphemes make a glyph
& letter shapes depend on circumstance.
The Latin et for “and” signs & in Trebuchet.
And per se and (ampersand):
& by itself is and.
And me myself?
I start, you stop,
I finish sentences. Fee! Fie!
Foe! Fum! Why won’t you let me
fl-fl-float, slurred ligature,
disfigured cuneiform?

And What About the Necktie?

He went crazy for the ties,
that winter of detox,
rehab, the county
psychiatric ward.

Every pattern,
every hue to match
the expensive suits
tailored to fit.

Blame it on the manic—
he must have draped
one hundred
by the end.

When his landlord walked
the rooms with me
an empty rack,
all that was left.

Where Mandrakes Grow

Estragon: What about hanging ourselves?
Vladimir: Hmm. It’d give us an erection.
Estragon: (highly excited). An erection!
Vladimir: With all that follows. Where it falls mandrakes grow.
That’s why they shriek when you pull them up. Did you not know that?
Estragon: Let’s hang ourselves immediately!

—Samuel Beckett, Waiting for Godot

Pressure on the cerebullum from the noose.
Forensically, postmortem priapism is an indicator—
death was likely swift and violent.

Lynch me, hog-tie, jute my carotid,
cinch it closed. All I wanted was
to merge—the font, the fount, the godhead.

Angel lust.

Suicide Vaudeville

Way out on Sapsucker Road,
a sidewalk to shovel and snowdrift
steps to reach the song & dance.
Rifle behind the door,
a wineglass shattered on the stairs.
Daisy-chained neckties lassoed to beams
in the living room where the radio
belted the “Best of Broadway,”
Ethel Merman and Everything’s coming
up roses, her mezzo soprano clobbering
every tenor within reach.
Better Gypsy than Sweeney Todd,
the ambulance driver said. Meat pies
and a trail of blood would have been—
let’s face it, a little too burlesque.

The Final Inamorata

That tightening loop,
a failed
meridian.

Un-
blessed the bruising ties.

They bind.
They rend.

Author Biography

Born in the coal country of northeastern Pennsylvania, Nancy Flynn’s writing has received a James Jones First Novel Fellowship and an Oregon Literary Fellowship; her second chapbook, Eternity a Coal’s Throw, will be published by Burning River in 2012. A former university administrator, she now lives in Portland, Oregon. In 2004, she happily reclaimed www.nancyflynn.com from the realtor in Massachusetts who had it first.

On David Bowie and Dancing About Architecture

What Grows In Its Place - David Tomaloff - Dancing About Architecture

DAVID BOWIE

hey kid,
look up at the stars;

do you think
one
of them
is david bowie?

go ahead
, make a wish:

dear david bowie,
I wish I had more
facebook friends

Author Biography

David Tomaloff is a writer, photographer, musician, and all around bad influence. His work has appeared in fine publications such as Mud Luscious, >kill author, Connotation Press, HOUSEFIRE, Prick of the Spindle, DOGZPLOT, elimae, and many more. He is the author of the chapbooks A SOFT THAT TOUCHES DOWN &REMOVES ITSELF (NAP), Olifaunt (Red Ceilings Press), EXIT STRATEGIES (Gold Wake Press), and MESCAL NON-PALINDROME CINEMA (Ten Pages Press). He resides in the form of ones and zeros at: davidtomaloff.com

on the theme of David Bowie

Labyrinth

Author Biography

Kevin Sampsell is the publisher of the micropress, Future Tense Books, and author and editor of several books of fiction and nonfiction. His latest book is A Common Pornography (Harper Perennial). He lives in Portland, Oregon.

On the theme of David Bowie

Editor’s note: I hate to pick favorites, but I’m doing it now. Jenny Hayes, this is a masterpiece. -DRG

Dear Rosie AKA Ro-Ho-Zee AKA Rosarita Refried Beans

October 12, 1981

Dear Rosie AKA Ro-Ho-Zee AKA Rosarita Refried Beans,

HI! Sorry your new school is so bunk. You aren’t missing much here,
everything is pretty much the same except that Erica got a perm and so
did Leslie Stang. I have Ms. Stanford for History AGAIN!!! I thought I
left her ugly face behind in 7th grade but I guess she teaches 8th
too. My English teacher seems pretty cool. Everything else is just
blah.

Hold on I am going to put on a record, wait isn’t it funny that I just
wrote “hold on” when you haven’t even gotten this letter yet? DUMB! I
bought “CHANGESONEBOWIE” at Pellucidar and it’s hella raw. I am going
to write you while the songs are playing and that way it will be like
we are listening together!

SPACE ODDITY – Weird, I always thought this song was called “Ground
Control To Major Tom” or something like that. I don’t think he even
says “Space Oddity” in the whole song. Do you remember at Jason’s
brother’s party last year how we were all lying on the ground outside
looking up at the stars and Miles said he saw a UFO? I think he was a
big fat liar. Or maybe he was HIGH!

JOHN, I’M ONLY DANCING – That reminds me of the other day when five or
six girls started busting a move at lunch, I don’t know them but the
cafeteria ladies tried to grab them so they started to run, and one of
them tripped over something and knocked Sarah’s tray of food all over
the floor. Oh Lordy!  I thought she was going to cry but she didn’t.
We all shared our lunch with her, I gave her an apple and Alexis gave
her half of a sandwich. Oops see that smear? I just smooshed an ant.
Sorry, ant.

CH-CH-CH-CH-CHANGES! “Turn and face the strange”, it seems like
everywhere I go that is what happens, something or someone strange.
But sometimes I like things that are strange! Did I tell you that Rain
got together with this guy named Marcus who is 17 or 18 and a punk. He
doesn’t go to Berkeley High or anywhere but I don’t know if he
graduated already or just dropped out. We went and rode around with
him and a couple of his friends in a van and they got us stoned and we
threw empty slurpee cups at some college students, it was hell of
funny! Then we drove past Sarah and yelled “HEY BABY” and she didn’t
know it was us! Then we went to some girl’s house and there was this
guy there who was FINE! Rain said she wished Marcus wasn’t there
because she wanted to jump on him. I talked to him a little, but
nothing really. Later we were telling Alexis and her older sister was
there and it turns out she knows all those people and she knew who the
really fine guy was. She said his name is Chris and HE HANDCUFFS HIS
GIRLFRIENDS!!!!!!

ZIGGY STARDUST – This song is soooooooo goooooood. One time Rain drew
a lightning bolt over her eye trying to make it like Ziggy Stardust
but it looked kind of weird, and it started to smear and then Alexis
told her it looked like a black eye and Rain said maybe it WAS. But it
was just eyeliner, but sometimes she can be way too dramatic.

SUFFRAGETTE CITY. Is that a real city? I have no idea what this song
is about. Except for WHAM BAM THANK YOU MA’AM! I like the piano part,
I’m gonna tell Sarah she should learn how to play it. She takes piano
lessons and she’s really good. Right now she is learning Stairway to
Heaven!

JEAN GENIE. If my name was Jean I would call myself that. Wait, do the
lyrics say good or bad things? I guess I’d have to listen closer. All
the nicknames for my name are dumb. I can’t think of anything to write
so here is a description of what I am wearing: black pegged pants,
light blue “Go Climb A Rock” t-shirt, purple sweat shirt, music note
pin, and black velvet china flats. Exciting huh? Plus I have blue nail
polish on my nails but it’s hell of chipping!

OOPS, I forgot this record player is dumb and it doesn’t stop when the
side is over, it’s spinning around and around with the needle down
going BUP … BUP … BUP … Maybe I’ll just sit and listen to that
for a while. What if it’s like one of those mantra things and if you
chant it over and over it opens your mind and you enter a new
dimension? Like the hare krishnas and the stuff they say, I don’t even
know! BUP… Maybe if I listen for long enough I’ll be in touch with
the consciousness of all beings. Maybe I will become one with that ant
that I smashed on this sheet of paper and then I will be sad. I am
going to close my eyes and see how long I can just listen…

Fuck that! I picked up the needle (it made a scratch, oops) and turned
the record over. Now it’s DIAMOND DOGS! They call them the diamond
dogs, wait WHO do they call that? Some dogs? Maybe next time I see
some dogs I’ll just go, “hello Diamond Dogs!” haha I am so weird!!!

REBEL REBEL, Rain likes this one the best, every time it comes on she
closes her eyes and shakes her head like a big weirdo, but I think
it’s pretty good too. The other day she had cloves and we smoked some
at lunch over by the hole in the fence. Have you ever tried them? I
don’t really like cigarettes but I love cloves, they make your mouth
all tingly and sweet tasting. She told me about this store where you
can buy them and they don’t even care if you have a note or anything.
I want to get some next time I have some money!

YOUNG AMERICANS. This is probably my least favorite, it’s okay but it
sounds like something that would be in a play that my parents would
drag me to and it would be some man going off about his lost youth or
something. And then he would BREAK DOWN AND CRYYYYYYYY…. My parents
had their friends over for dinner last night and they are so weird,
the lady has really long hair like down to her butt but it is going
gray, and she wore this long skirt with bells on it! (that was kind of
cool actually) The man is so funny looking, I wish I could draw better
so I could just show you. He has these weird big teeth and dark framed
glasses and this laugh that is like “HUH! HUH! HUH!” it was driving me
crazy!

FAME …wouldn’t it be neat if someday we got famous? Like if we were
all famous together, you and me and Sarah and Rain and Alexis. I know
you think they don’t really like you but they just don’t  know you
that well. It’s kind of weird how I started hanging out with all of
them after you and me sort of stopped acting like friends (even though
we still were!) at the end of last school year. I always figured
sooner or later you and me would go back to how things were before,
and then we’d all be friends together, but then you moved.

GOLDEN YEARS. Golden years, mwop mwop mwop … I was going around
singing that part in science the other day, just walking up to people
going “mwop mwop mwop”, everyone probably thought I was a super freak.
Have you heard that song SUPER FREAK??? It’s hexa coo! One time me and
Alexis and Rain were singing it on the 51 and some lady was looking at
us like “How dare you sing on the bus!” But then this one guy went
“Gimme five!” when he stood up to ring the bell for his stop. We all
slapped his hand and then he said something to Rain and none of us
heard what it was but it seemed kind of perverted so I was glad he got
off the bus.

Well, it’s over. Ta-Da! (I already took the needle off this time don’t
worry) Well write me back soon or else I will beat-a your-a ass-a!

Love,

Alison AKA Ally-Wally AKA Alisonwonderland

P.S. WRITE BACK!

P. P.S. Another ant just walked on this piece of paper, but I let it live.

P. P. P.S. I saw Mr. Walter in the hall last week and he said to tell
you he MISSES YOUR BUTT!!!!!!!!!

Author Biography

Jenny Hayes grew up in Berkeley, California and now lives in Seattle.
Her work has appeared in Penduline Press, Ampersand Journal, and
Significant Objects, and she co-authors the blog Yard Sale Bloodbath..
http://www.jennyhayes.com

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Horror

Halloween night/secluded first floor apartment/vandals shot
out street lamps/shadows surrender to darkness/Friday movie
night/cable flick/Cat People/rage of leopards/cross boundary
to human form/must kill to return from transference/spooky
dude David Bowie/black garb/high heel boots/mascara and
lipstick/androgyny/howls during final credits/”Putting out fire
with gasoline”/feral felines clash/window panes rattle/renters
dive into nightmare.

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Artist Biography

Joey DAMMIT! is a mixed media/collage pop artist. Born in Madeira, Portugal, DAMMIT! immigrated with his family to Toronto, Canada at the age of 4.Joey DAMMIT! is the three time winner of Toronto’s NOW magazine’s “Best Visual Artist” award. He has been featured on numerous occasions in print and in electronic media, winning some prestigious awards along the way. The Toronto Star, Canada’s largest newspaper, hailed his work as “Warhol in a head-on collision with David Lynch.” His art has been called “brilliant and original” by Mix Arts magazine, and “edgy and darkly funny” by Toronto Life Magazine. He was recently chosen by Inside Entertainment Magazine as one of the “Six Canadian Artists To Watch”. DAMMIT! is especially proud of being the first Canadian artist to be featured on the Naked News. More of his work can be seen at his website. 

On the themes of David Bowie, Joan of Arc, and Enough Rope

Hammer Down
For Samantha Callahan
(ENOUGH ROPE)

You’re an eight-ball. Every hand you see
is crooked, that of old men who shake whiskey sours
in harbor bars. Forget that sludge of a sigh
resting heavy in your gut. Autumn is always here,
always bringing you back to Seventeenth Street: church
every day with the south-end Irish,
a paisley shawl wrapped tightly ‘round your waist.

This city is no bigger than when the men were scarce and broken,
when all the boys were merely boys. When the tide takes it,
its nervous waltz will keep us sleepless. Don’t rest. Hurry home.
Name your truth and touch me.

___

This Is What Happens When You’re Single Too Long and a Pretty Girl Named Joan Smiles At You
(JOAN OF ARC)

I thought for too long about the arc of our bodies.
Not when we are older, but when we were younger,
before we knew each other: your drink stays full all night
and you hold it like a burden. You lean forward.
I’m a janitor three states over. I tug at my posture
like a half-truth. We’re seventeen. We’re always seventeen.

___

Let’s Spend the Night Together
(David Bowie)

Popular rumor states that Angela Bowie found her then-husband naked in bed with (also naked) Rolling Stones lead singer Mick Jagger sometime in the early 70s. Upon Angela revealing this on an episode of The Joan Rivers Show in 1990, the aftermath of denial showed both men handling damage control in the spirit of their rock and roll personas: the cocksure Jagger came right out and said that Angela was full of shit and Bowie came right out and said nothing, as his lawyer released a statement saying that there was never a gay relationship between the two. It makes sense that Mick, who has based an entire career around singing like a man and dancing like a woman, would do one thing and say another. And of course David, who has based an entire career around androgyny and displacement, would just let people think whatever the hell they wanted.

It’s called being a rockstar. The whole point being that you do whatever it is that you want with no consideration for the outcome, which is why you can take a class on the British Invasion and think critically about lyrical allusions to personal and political turmoil, but at the end of the day you’re either the sort of person who’s going to throw a hotel television into a pool or you’re not. To this end, it would make perfect sense for Mick and David to come right out and say, “Yep, we totally had sex with each other. What of it?” Because there was no such public acknowledgement of the tryst, are we right to assume that the tryst is a fabrication and that both men led totally hetero lives?

Perhaps. In moving beyond base-level fascination, salacious celebrity sex stories are no more interesting than their blue collar counterparts. Hip Hop Man fucks Business Mogul’s Inexplicably Famous Daughter is, essentially, the same thing as Bowling Alley Manager Man fucks Avon Saleswoman. The true banalities of sex are obvious when the act is both the means and the end. It’s like watching pornography or engaging in last call hook ups or almost all of sex that Mick and David had throughout their careers. For them to have been outed in the 70s, at the height of their respective popularity, would have only helped to propel the mythos they were building. It would have just one more hole for Mick’s “fuck anything” attitude and as for David, it would have added another layer to his queerness-by-way-of-fucking-supermodels. So it’s entirely possible that the issue wasn’t one of sex.

Or sexuality, for that matter. When (then former) Judas Priest vocalist Rob Halford came out of the closet in 1998, he made note of how having to hide his homosexuality caused him to go through severe bouts of loneliness and depression. Though I don’t doubt that Mick and David dealt with similar demons, nothing they’ve ever done has given the impression that it’s because they were hiding their sexual preference from the world at large. If anything, they fell into depressive states due to their substance abuse, as opposed to Halford falling into substance abuse to help deal with his depression.

It seems to make the most sense, then, that Mick and David are two men who loved not other men, but one another, in ways that stretched beyond gender. A true “forbidden love” usually tends to be more of the former and less of the latter, but Bowie and Jagger seemed much more like Romeo and Juliet than, say, a teenage version of yourself in dire need of dating someone ten years older who likes to punch you in the meat of your arms while you fuck, and only survives because the street value of cocaine doesn’t fluctuate as wildly as the job market. (Call your parents and apologize. They were probably right about some stuff.)

I like to believe that Bowie and Jagger had sex at least once. I like to think that they shared a unique, honest love that, both in spite and because of their importance to rock and roll, they felt they could never publicly express. It humanizes the larger than life aspects of their characters in ways that only the effects of simple, compounded ache can do.

Putting aside musical integrity and topical aesthetics, the video for Mick and David’s version of “Dancing In the Street” by Martha and the Vandellas is amongst the most ambiguously gay entities of the 1980s, the same era that spawned the volleyball scene in Top Gun and the ’87 Oakland A’s. Above all, it is the Rosetta Stone to their dynamic, and while the undertones range from playful to overt, there is no slack at all in the tension between Mick and David, as if their hearts and cocks are tethered by the tightest of guitar strings. In it, we find two men who allegedly shared at least one evening of passion a decade prior. After the fires of both their careers and feelings have settled a bit, they get together and experience somewhat of a rekindling, somewhat of an exposure to the differences between what they were to one another and what they currently are.

:00-40 (Warehouse)
Mick is dancing by himself. He calls out, asking if everyone in the world is “ready for a brand new beat.” He sings “Summer’s here, the time is right,” and then David shows up in frame on an elevated surface to the right of Mick.

:41-:47 (Warehouse)
The camera does a momentary close-up of David smiling in a somewhat maniacal toward Mick. Overwhelmed to a point of bursting, David jumps down in the direction of Mick. When the camera cuts back to Mick, David walks into the shot coolly and stands next to him without acknowledging or being acknowledged.

:48-:50 (Warehouse)
David dips down and bounces back up quickly, brushing his head against the side of Mick’s head. Mick takes a second to react and then darts his eyes over to David as if worried about the obviousness of intentions better left secret. David doesn’t notice.

1:06-1:13 (Street)
The men face each other and sing “It doesn’t matter what you wear.” David’s head remains forward, but his eyes go to Mick’s mouth. Mick looks straight forward at David’s face. Mick fiddles with the lapel on David’s jacket. The men put their foreheads together and sing, loudly, convincingly, “As long as you are there.”

1:14-1:22 (Street)
Immediately after finishing the previous line, the men turn away from each other to sing “Every guy, grab a girl.” They then face each other at close range once again to sing, “Everywhere, around the world, we’ll be dancin’.” The scene freezes briefly before cutting away. Mick’s lips are puckered. David is moving toward them, eyes closed.

1:36-1:42 (Street)
The camera revolves around Bowie in the foreground and Mick in the background as David takes the lead vocal. Mick fixes his hair with one hand while looking at David. Mick’s gaze is one of inventory and concentration. He quickly licks his lips as he hops back in front of David so the two of them can sing the refrain together.

2:18-2:19 (Warehouse)
This time, it’s Mick who rubs his head lightly against the side of David’s. David looks annoyed. Mick doesn’t notice.

2:45-2:58 (Street)
The camera slows down and does a tight shot of the men’s asses. They’re side-by-side and they shake their hips in total synchronicity to the left, the right, and back to the left quickly before the camera freezes and fades to white. In the last second of the video, the screen fades to the traditional black.

Five years after that, after they had learned to live at peace with what they shared, it’s brought up as a cheap matter of publicity. I’d deny it, too. And then I’d grab a girl and dance in the goddamn street.

___

Line
(David Bowie)

A pity-seeking friend of mine who was prone to announcing his heart pains at dinner and then dramatically taking nitroglycerin pills started up with the old act, to which I said, “If you have chest pains alone in the woods, is it still a heart attack?” It was the last time I was funny, about twenty-five years ago.

I ask Vince about comedy the way kids ask their parents how clouds work and he responds back like cough syrup dripping down the side of the bottle. I’ve been his tour manager for the past few decades. He keeps me around because I’m not funny, because I don’t romanticize comedy the way other people do. When I said my heart attack line at dinner that one time, he laughed like everyone else and then said, “One more like that and you’re fired.”

The newest tour is probably his last big one, so I’ve made it the biggest one: half a year straight, 140 shows. Vince is in his late-50s and he’ll do more shows this year than an MLB pitcher will play games. I’ve set it up so he’ll be taking a young comedian out with him, and when I pick them both up at the airport, Vince and I wait for twenty minutes while Lee signs autographs. Vince watches him through the window and I go, “He’s on that new show, Mumford’s Place. The reviews aren’t great, but the ratings are pretty outstanding for the timeslot.”

Vince moves his mouth off to the side of his face and thinks for a moment before saying, with no malice, “He’s at the part of his teens where girls think he gets ten seconds of TV time for every inch of his dick.”

“He’s twenty-three,” I say.

“Yeah,” Vince says. “No shit.”

Lee bombs that first night, which is the opposite of killing, which is what a comedian wants to do. “It’s like the wilderness,” Vince tells me the next morning over breakfast at the hotel, talking about Lee’s set from the night prior. “You kill the audience or they kill you. And if you don’t do either, you probably aren’t worth a goddamn.”

I look over and see Lee through the window, lying down on a bench outside. The sun is already out and Lee is on his back, arms hanging off to his sides so the tips of his fingers touch the ground. We go to see if he’s all right. “I don’t think I did so hot last night, guys,” he says.

“It’ll get easier when everyone cares except you and not the other way around,” Vince says, tossing a bagel on his chest. “Now eat your Jew pills and go take a shower.”

Later on, right as Lee walks onto stage, Vince turns to me as we watch from the wings. “He has the sort of eyes that always look like someone just got done politely attacking them with a squeegee.” The crowd laughs, and for a second, I think it’s for Vince.

* * *

We’re a couple weeks into the tour and a good chunk of the crowd is leaving after Lee finishes. They walk out in groups of two or three at a time and talk loudly about needing to use the bathroom or wanting some Ju-Ju Fruits, some sort of guilty alibi they feel they need to have for thinking that Lee’s schtick from Mumford’s Place that’s gone into his act is, somehow, unfollowable.

Vince isn’t sour, but it’s sort of nudged him toward long exposition about true, how there’s no such thing as the new truth, there’s only the new thing that is or isn’t true.

“The only thing left in comedy is honesty,” he says from the stage. “And it’s all being used up on some really convincing lies.”

We’re going to the car after a show and some guy casually walks up to Lee and hits him across the nose with a right hook. I talked to the cops while Vince sat with Lee in the ER. “I can see it in the papers, Lee,” he said. “HIT COMEDIAN IS HIT COMEDIAN.” That’s how Vince salts wounds, by being the worst possible variation of the thing he already is.

Sure enough, the news can’t leave it alone. Any tickets left for any of the shows sell. Then Lee’s act goes completely down the shitter. It becomes like watching one of those Time-Life commercials for Best Of compilations, little snippets of things remembered, the Reader’s Digest version of comedy with an odd shine-job from Lee’s newfound celebrity. Vince said it was like watching an open mic at a surgeon’s office. “They’ll laugh at anything, just leave their brain alone.”

Getting back to the hotel was an ordeal now, with everyone wanting autographs from Lee. “What do I do?” he asked me. “They wait for me in the hallway.”

“Don’t ask me. I don’t know anything about hallways.”

Vince smirked and told me I was fired. We walked outside and Lee had his Sharpie out, running through the three letters of his name so fast that it looked like a series of number twos eating itself.

* * *

Lee is on the cover of US Weekly. Not the whole thing, just in a little box in the corner. But still.

Apparently, he’s one of the most eligible bachelors alive. The little blurb about him inside says that he’s a breath of fresh air into the stuffiness that comedy has become. He’s quoted as saying, “People think that comedy is just someone getting on stage and being funny. It takes a lot of unhappiness to get satisfaction through comedy.”

How do you feel bad for someone who hates the attention they tried really hard to get? It becomes especially difficult to do when he misses his next show to go trip on acid with some hippy looking woman, long Crystal Gayle hair down to the tops of her thighs, even the fog of her breath coming out in earth tones. The tour is half over and Lee looks like he has to be microwaved every morning. There’s been talk around the crew of Lee’s manager wanting to pull off the tour early and book some stadiums for Lee to do solo.

There’s an entourage all the time now. Publicists and other folks who, as far as I can tell, aren’t doing much. Vince calls to him one night when he’s walking out with his new friends and says, “When was the last time you were alone?” Before Lee can answer, Vince asks him, “Are you all right with that?” And again, Vince gets up and goes before Lee can say a thing.

* * *

There are five dates left on the tour. I’m starting to think that Vince could do it forever. It’s clear that he’s built his life around performing comedy on the road. I bring it up to him and he says, “I knew in twenty or thirty years I’d choose hotel shampoo over a family anyways, so I figured I’d just skip right to it.”

It’s been almost six months since we first left and Lee’s usefulness has pretty much been used up. There are no more magazine interviews, no more contracts being overnighted to the venue, and no more throngs of admirers. He didn’t know how to be famous, so he said the wrong things and got his picture taken with the wrong people. Not the people who have wrongness built into their image, but the people who have no image and promote Lee, albeit by association, as about as exciting as he really is, which is about as exciting as most of us, though we’re smart enough to fluff the truth.

He isn’t going to be broke or anything when the tour’s over. He’s still got offers he’s already been signed on to do, guaranteed money coming his way, but I think he knows that he has a year or two left in his career before he has to stop everything and find something else to do, go away for awhile in hopes that he is missed and then subsequently loved upon rearrival.

Vince and I get to the venue early and hear something coming from the stage. It’s Lee, not amplified at all, just standing in his normal spot doing his act, the first act he had when he started on tour. Bad gags about airports and his dick and comic books, but material that is all his. There’s a security guard in the way back watching him but not listening and there’s me and Vince standing off to the side. Lee doesn’t see us and he just barrels through his act, not fumbling the words, not throwing in any sitcom catchphrases. Then he stops and says, “I forget.”

It’s quiet. I visibly stiffen up my back and shoulders. Vince elbows me in the ribs lightly and says, “What, you don’t think this is funny?”

Author Biography

BIO: Ryan Werner is a janitor from Wisconsin. He runs the music/literature project Our Band Could Be Your Lit. He’s a six foot, hot look, all American male.

on the theme of David Bowie

Artist - Jason Herzog

Artist Biography

Jason W. Herzog
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